Story of the Prophet Yusuf

i am slowly losing myself
losing who i was
losing who i am
what's exactly happening?
i've always never can understand what's happening.
why are people so mean?
why do they hurt you?
why is it that when you want to search for help, all they can do is say
"move on?"
if moving on was easy I would have done it

why is it that things are so hard?
why do i keep seeing this are hard?
what is it really that i needed to see?
why are my head or mind so clouded?

how does anyone climb up from this?
how does anyone don't feel like killing themselves when things become this way?
i have no idea